it’s not about me. It’s about who I am , and the One who made me that way, and I plan to be a seeker of his wisdom and love.
i used to think I was the strangest person in the world but then I thought, there are so many people in the world, there must be someone just like me who feels bizarre and flawed in the same ways I do. I would imagine him, and imagine that he must be out there thinking of me too. Well, I hope that if you are out there and read this and know that, yes, it’s true I’m here, and I’m just as strange as you. ”
in short I want to be stronger, I want more control and most of all I want to learn to be happy and to let the little shit go. This is a constant struggle for me. I need to work more on myself, like I used to. I think a part of me is scared of what I may find. I’m scared of how far I have come and how much work it is going to take to get me back where I want to be.