To all Adams


How  many  of  you  do  appreciate  the  men  in  your  lives?

let  me  ask,  when  was  the  last  time  you  did  appreciate  the men  in your  lives?

do  they  have to  do  something  out  of  this world  for  you  to  recognise  their  efforts?

they  toil,  they  protect,  they  listen  to  you  when  the  world  shuts  its  door  on  your  face,

don’t you  love  how  your  brother(s) teases  you,   don’t  you  appreciate  when   they  ask  you  what  might  be  wrong,  Don’t  you  love  how  they  help  you  push  things  around  in  the  house.  when  you  need  them  they  are  always  there?

so  to  all  Adams,

as  i  stand  here  before  you,  my  arms  spread  wide,

i  just  want  to  take  a  second  to  appreciate  all  Adams,

May  God‘s  love  be  with  you  as it  has  been  with me ,

may  your  thoughts  be  clean, may  God  do  a  surgery,

on  your  actions  and  in  your  thoughts  and  remove  the parts  that

have  decayed.

may  you  have  the  purity  of  Joseph

wisdom  of  Josiah and  not  of  Solomon

may  you  be  responsible  just  like  Boaz was

I  pray  that  you  will  have  the honesty  of  Job,

who  never had shame  to  say  God was God,

may  Paul’s  courage  be  your sight,

forgiving  heart like  Ananias  of  Damascus

and  lastly  may  you  have  the  compassion  of  Jesus.

as  we  appreciate  the  men  in  our  lives,

i  pray  that,  you  will  be  the  Psalm 1 man,

blessed  is  the Micheal   who  does  not  walk   in  the

counsel  of  the  ungodly nor  stands  in  the path

of  the  unrighteousness   nor  sits  in the   seats of  the  scornful

but  delights  in  the  word  of the  lord.

for David shall  be like  a tree planted   by the  rivers of  water,

that  brings  forth   its fruits  in  the season  ,  whose

leaf  does  not wither  and  whatever  he  does  shall  prosper..

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stay  put  :)

 

Hubby , where are you hiding?


wherever  you  are  ,  just  read  this, :)

Dear love,

I  have  no  idea why  am  writing  to  a  stranger ,  I  have  no  idea  why  I  got  these intense  feelings  to  just  put  my  thoughts  across.    Please tell me am not crazy. Where are you hiding? Whenever  I  see  you ,  hear  you  or  feel  you  I  glow.  I  for  some  cause   get  excited  and  smile  for  no  clear  reason.  Most of my friends are “jealous “of   my happiness, sometimes they get angry when I duck their dates.  There  is  something  in  you  that  makes  you  different  ,  I  do  not  know   what, maybe it is  in your genes . Sorry  for  my  rudeness  but ,  I  do  hope  you  are  doing  great.  I  am  so excited  to  just  express  myself in  letters. My smile runs from one end to another.  Am I not the lucky girl?

I’ve been searching for that someone, to show me the way, to take my hand and tell me that everything will be okay; I’ve been searching for that someone, and now I know it’s true, I’ve found that special someone, I’ve found that someone in you.   How  you  talk  ,  look  at  me  makes  me feel  I  am  the  only Girl  in the  world.  My patience is paying it at last.  I   have totally waited  for the  day   I  will  walk  down  the  aisle  to  find  you  waiting  for  me.  the  moment  when  I  get  scared  at  night  you   comfort  me ,  the  times  I  would be  sad   I  believe  you  will  be  there  for  me just  as  I  will  be  there  for  you.

What  really  makes  me    happy  is  the  fact  that  you  are  carrying  our  babies  our  son  and  daughter  or  whatever  God  has  planned  for us  ,  he  knows  best.  I  do  believe  that  our  son  will  be  a Godly  son,  raised  in  Godly  way  ,  I  do  hope  he  will  learn  from  you  how to  treat  ladies  especially  his future  wife and  his sister. The Holyspirt will  help  him  not tobe  lured  to the world, I pray. Whatever choice he will pick  I  do  hope  he   will  grow  up  to  be  a  man  who  is God  fearing.  He will grow up to be the Psalms 1:1 man.  May God grace follow him.

For  our  daughter  ,  I  do  believe  at  times  you  will  feel  insecure  but  from  my  experience I  would  recommend  you  to  be  open  to  her.  I  will  be  open  to  her  but  we  all  know  how  daughters are with  their  fathers ( this  will  be  the  result  of  the  relationship  the  two  of  you  will  have) you  are  the  first  man  she  will  trust  and love  treasure  it .  I  am  just  reminding  you  ,  fathers  sometimes  forget  what  they  were  to  do  however  I  do  believe  that  you  will  be  the  best  husband  and  father  to  your  family.    I  do  pray  that  she will  grow  to  be  the  Proverbs  31 woman. We are going to be the best set of parents any  kid could ever ask for.

When  you  get  that someone  who  will  love  you  without  judging  ,  who  will  not  look  down  on  you  because  of your  weakness  but  will  look  at  your  weakness and strengthen  it  - makes  a  difference.  That feeling turns someone sadness into joy.

I  have  not  met  you  but  I  believe  you  are  at  your house  or  wherever  you  are,  feeling  what  I  am  feeling.  I  pray  for  you  each  day  that  the  angels  will  watch  your  step  ,  that  whatever  you  do  will  be  a  blessing .  all  I  want  is  to  be  in  your  life  that’s  all  =>  I will always include you in upcoming decisions. I need your perspective, counsel, and input.   A man who chooses God   over his  wife I  cannot  wait  to  meet  you  my  love.I pray that
our relationship will bring glory to God. I look forward to our many
adventures together.

*i  found  out  that  what you  are  about to read  made sense ,  to  all  ladies  who  are  in  a hurry , read  this   maybe  it  will  prove  a  point *

( this was just a  by   the way  note)

Dear ladies, Firstly… If you’re still struggling to find a husband at an old age because you’re looking for a perfect man, something is certainly wrong with you. Now, your propaganda magazine tells you that ‘All men are liars, cheat and useless’, but let’s be honest here, which is more likely, is it there is something wrong with 70 million African men? Or there is something wrong with one African women, YOU? The truth is this, when a product is not doing well, the sales team doesn’t blame the customers, they either blame the product or sales and marketing strategy. So ladies, have you being marketing yourself? Do you think you will be picked out of the shelf and placed in a basket of matrimony if you are always hanging out with coven of witches you call friends? Those ladies who intimidated any man who approaches you? Hmm drinking yourself to stupor every Friday and Saturday night does not exactly makes you looks like a marriage materials. Neither will any product (YOU) do well in the market if the sales team (YOU) reek of desperation. Nagging, whining only tells a man that he is watching a preview of what will be like if he walks down the aisle with you. If your precious EX’s all complained about your nags, get a gag! You want a husband? …. Invest in a good wardrobe and dress well. When a man comes to you, smile and be polite even if he doesn’t fit to your mental image of your kind of man. At 18, most ladies already have an image of her perfect man, which includes height, body type and wealth. As times goes on, a lady will add more qualities to her list. Such that by the time she is dating for a marriage, not a single man alive can meet her exact standards. Ladies, stop coming to relationship with a chip on your shoulder. If you believe all men are ‘bad’ all men are Dogs, then it will become a self fulfilling prophesy. No man is perfect, if you want to find a perfect man, you will have to do a Genesis chapter one and make him out of clay, and breathe life to him. And even then, chances are, he may still disappoint. You say you can’t marry a blue collar guy like a mechanic or carpenter, now if a carpenter was good enough to marry Mary mother of the Jesus Christ, why isn’t one good enough for you? Do not focus on where a man is now, but look and see where he has the potentials to be. Don’t focus on some petty physical features that are not up to your Mexican soap-opera standards. Hmm your dream man, will he be faithful? Will he be a good father to your kids and a good husband to you? Will he love, cherish and respect you? What the point of being beaten to a pulp every night by some rich, good looking and womanizer jerk? Do you want a future where you will sit in traffic in your BMW X6, GUCCI sunglasses covering your swollen eyes and you look out of window and see a happy couple in 1972 Old Crap Non-silencer Volks Wagen holding hands, laughing and giggling like new wedded couple even after 12 years of marriage. I believe wherever you are, its full of good men, you’re just so caught up day dreaming about your fantasy man that they are passing unnoticed before your very eyes. Don’t be cynical, fussy and uptight. Improve your product, and how it’s marketed and demand for it will grow through the roof. And remember you’r e competing in a modern African market. Don’ t fake pregnancy or get pregnant to trap him, that doesn’t works anymore! Your perfect man is out there, he may not look like what you want or expect, but if you give him a chance, the two of you will find joy, companionship and completion like you have never thought possible. Everybody can love a rose but it takes a great heart to include the thorns. (unknown)

any way  ,

 Stay  Put

love is what you believe in and what you do with it


What is love to you…?

This is real love – not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as a sacrifice to take away our sins.1 John 4:10.  If  you  do not  love  your  fellow  men  how  do  you  expect  to  love  yourself.  The  bible  says  that  you cannot  love  God who  we  have  not  seen  ,  yet  we  fail  to  love  the person  who  sits  next  to. Am I making sense?

I  know  for  sure  many  would  read  this   and  think that  I  am  naïve  but  I  am  glad  I  am.  When  was  the  last  time  someone  just  told  you  “I love  you”?  I bet you felt warm in your heart.  It  is  the  little  things  we  do  that  makes  the  difference.  Whenever  you  feel  that  you  are  putting  the  effort  to  love  someone,  believe  me  or  not  you  are  doing  it  wrong.

Love  comes  from  the  heart,  you  do  not  force  it ,  it   never  ends.  Love is not a feeling.  It is   more than a feeling.  Just  as  Christ  loved  you  and  went  out  of  his way  to  die  for  you  so  that  you  and  I  can  have  everlasting  life is  the  same  way  you  need  to. Someone  out  there  need  assurance  that  you will  be  there for  her  or  him. Friendship  is  made  when  one  stops  to  look  at  an  individual flaws  and  accept  him or  her  as she is. You  do  not  believe  in  love,  you  might  say  but  I  will  prove  you wrong.  Lock  yourself  somewhere,  do  not  speak  to  anyone for  2  weeks –you  will  not  pass.  Irrespective  of  me  not  knowing  you, you  would  need  someone  to  talk  to.  Never trust man   trust God.  Man  is  bound  to  fail  but God  never  fails  to  keep  his  promises.

You been hurt, you been cheated on, it is fine.  Forget  what  happened  and  focus  on  what  is  ahead  of  you.  Do  not  hide  yourself  from  people  be  real  and  I  know  someone  out  there  would  love  you  just  as  you  are.  You  do  not  have  to  pretend  to  be  cool  so  that  people accept  you BE  REAL  and people  are going  to  follow  you.

Life is school with so many classes.  We  meet  so  much  challenge  but let  no  man  make  you  feel  little  about  yourself.  God has a purpose for you to be in this world.  He knows what you going through just trust him.  Renew, release, let go. Yesterday is gone. There is nothing you can do to bring it back. You cannot ‘should’ve’ done something. You can only do something. Renew yourself. Release that attachment. Today is a new day.

Do what makes you happy.  Love  someone,  be  that  friend  who  every  person  would  want  to  have.  If  you  love  someone ,  tell  him or  her, the  worst  that  can  happen  is  that  she  or he  will  not  feel  the  same.  When that happens accept it and move on.  Be happy.  Smile  at  the  world  and  it  going  to  smile  back  at  you.  You special do not forget that.   Meet  new  friends,  learn  about  them  and  when  you  feel  in  your  heart  that  someone  is  meant  to  be  in  your  heart,  they  are going  to  fit  perfectly  without  any  help  and  effort.

Never ever chase love, let love find you. Good relationships come to those who wait. It is like a surprise party. You did not expect it, it just happened. You do not need to squeeze yourself in some ones time and life. If you mean something to someone, you will fit perfect. Remember friendship is like pieces of puzzle, if you try to squeeze one piece in a small hole ** (do not get me wrong) you will mess around.  Is there someone who you would love to meet and talk about how you feel? Trust me the best thing in life is not let your ego consume you rather speak what you feel. Whatever you do today may change your life forever. I know there is someone out there you would want to walk with every day, so stand out and go share how you feel. At the end of the day, you will realize that you took the step and courage.

Words of encouragement:

We always love those who hate us and hate those who love us. Lesson learnt treat each person as though the world is ending. You may never know what impact he or she can bring into your life. Every person is a gem and a dime in your life. Never go miles looking for help rather just take a look beside you and help will come on your way. falling in love is like giving someone a gun and letting them point it at your heart but trusting them not to pull the trigger we  all  have  that  friend  whom  we  love  whom we  can  cross  the  ocean  for .   You are smiling when you think of him/her.  that  friend  whom  you fear  losing  when  he  or  she is  not  yours  but  what  happens  when  the  person  you  liked  likes someone  else.

Cheers lovely Wednesday

A BROKEN WOMAN IS DIFFICULT TO LOVE- by Adori writes


when  you  get  a  chance  to  read  a  good  post,  the  least  you  can  do  is  to  copy  paste  it  :)    i  do  believe  good  work  needs  to  be  awarded.

Writing, to me, is like stripping naked on the highway and hoping someone will whistle at your round thighs (well dimple brown ones in my case) and youthful body. You bare your soul on a piece of paper that really didn’t know what you had coming until ink filled with emotions came dripping onto it. . .Just like the tears shed in truth and lies.

Truth is a funny thing you know. Often we think we want everyone to be honest with us, tell us the truth ALL THE TIME, bare their souls every waking moment of their lives. And God forbid they leave out a detail or two, ALL HELL shall break loose and the warm feeling love gives you will turn into a burning feeling of bubbling magma rising from your toes up straight to your heart.

Lies. . . oh, the beginning of the end. Ever felt so angry you could feel your own heart pumping within its nest? You know. . like you could hear it beat; angrily pumping pure vial into your veins, your voice even trembled as your spoke, the right words came at the wrong time and the wrong ones just couldn’t stop rumbling out at that time? Pure poison. . Anger of that magnitude is pure poison. It poisons your heart, your head and your life.

So today I felt like I was around a situation that aroused lies. Women have a powerful 6th sense (no ladies, partial insanity when you leave 25 missed calls and 5 abusive texts doesn’t count when you feel insecure). I must admit, I have gone the whole 9 yards when it comes to insanity (but I’d rather call my case immaturity coupled with a severe case of insecurity). Ever since I managed to walk away from a situation that provoked only negativity when the word “Trust” was mentioned I spent a while being my own private eye.

Let me explain, to all the women out there who have ever snooped (and don’t pretend you all have never glanced or went the whole 19 yards and saved numbers of suspicious names like “Girl from Skylux” or “Florida” or “Big Ass”) whenever we went searching, we always found something! Often we become those “women” we  talk  ill   about even without realizing. And you know what. . . it all began with that ONE (or one too many) lies (and TRUTHS).

Anyway, two things I have observed is that a woman is not broken easily and that very rarely do relationships end over infidelity.

Infidelity is such a touchy subject. Whether emotionally or physically we may have delved into those quagmire of haves and have-nots and halves. Yes cheating sometimes can be so innocent we almost believe we are justified and it can be so betraying that the pain of leaving seems worse than staying with the stray (the partner that stuck their hand in the forbidden cookie jar). But many times, despite the infidelity that may be uncovered or strongly suspected we stay. Why?

Now, onto the woman’s strength – I am not going to preach like a civil rights leader trying to get some Act approved. No I will not. But a woman’s strength is something to write home about. A woman is nature’s reflection of God. She will satisfy her man in more ways than she knew how, she will protect her man like she will protect her womb, she will be his support and cheerleader even when she hates his smelly socks. A woman can do all that, even after she knows that her man is shared.

Every passing day friends may tell her to leave, to walk away but she stays and no body understands why or how she does it. A woman’s heart can endure the cold of winter and the heat of the equator, it can be as bitter as her youth or as rich as the salt of years. But a woman’s heart can break. It can break under that toil of overcoming daily disappointment without any daily dose of genuine love. It can break like porcelain. And a broken woman is difficult to love.

A broken woman will be snide and bitter, with jokes that burn to the soul of her audience. She has lost faith in her worth and can only seek to destroy others through spite and gossip. A broken woman has no self respect and will remain other men’s number 2’s because even to herself she is not number one. She will appear fierce and confident but only has faith in superficial things like the appearance of her body and not the authenticity of her soul. A broken woman is difficult to love. Because she will only attract broken men.

So think before you stay in a relationship that breaks the very core of you. And if you choose to stay with the man who has betrayed you, let it be because of the good he is done and not because you choose to sweep his lies under the blanket cover of “ I am sorry” . Funny how misleading three words can be.. “I love you” too, might not be true.

Do not pick and choose what to believe, pick and choose when to leave.

cc:http://adoripoetry.wordpress.com/2012/06/07/a-broken-woman-is-difficult-to-love/

i  told  you  its  a  beautiful  post  :)

the beauty behind your life


dear  you,

you  are  beautiful , you  are  handsome  remember  that.  each  and  every  day  REJOICE for  the achievements  you  have  not  yet  accomplished.  take  each  day  at time.  there  is  no  hurry  what  matters  is  that  you  reach  your  destination  safe  and  sound.

do  you  ever  reflect  back  on  your  life?  i  do  know  sometimes,  life  may not  be  as  beautiful  as  you  wanted ,  but  all  i  know  is  that  you  have  to  see  the  beauty  that  is  hidden  behind  this  life. as  long  as  the  sun  shines,  do  your  best  to make  the  day  count.

do  what  you  love  doing,  encourage  someone ,  comfort  someone  who  needs  a  shoulder  to  lean  on.  take  time  and listen  to  other  people.  the  moment  you  give  your  time  to  some  they  will  always  remember  you.  i  know  some    people  might  have  taken  you  for  granted  but  do  your  best  and  forget  it.  though  it  still  lingers  inside  you  bury it  deep  down

be  there  for  your  family.  smile  even  when  things  go wrong,  someone  out  there  just  needs  to  see  that  curve  on your  lips. (a  smile says  a lot)

i  do  know  we  are  humans  and  yeah  we  do  have  our  moments  but  remember   to

EAT,  PRAY  AND  LOVE.

cheers  and  God  bless

dear my adorable daughter ,


To my unborn daughter,
Am not quite sure why I am writing this letter , but the truth is that there is a deep connection that is between me and you. Again Am not quite sure if you happen to feel the same but I just love you, love not because I am your mother but love with no reason. From the day the doctor told me I had you inside me, I was deeply overwhelmed. However I had no guts to tell my parents that I was pregnant. Born in a very rigid family, I was too scared to even utter a word. Your mother had no idea that I was carrying his child, maybe I was afraid that he would run away or do something strange. ( have always told you how men are strange and deep down in my heart , though you sit and discus about men , you always have this crazy sentence in your mind “mum, it’s the same old story I bet I can even finish those your sentences”) I still love you.
Life has never been easy and let me not lie to you it would never be easy. I assure you that when you get out of that door , you will encounter all kinds of people. I hope am not instilling fear into you but darling , you have to make the right choice. If and if deep down you feel that something is not right kindly do not do it. There is no use of doing something and regretting afterward. Babe there is no need! I am sure you will grow up hearing my advice and get sick of it, but when you are mad at me, come to this letter so you can see where I am coming from. I love you.
When I held you in my hands , I could not help it tears of joy ran down my chubby cheeks. You were too tender and innocent. You were the beautiful thing I had ever seen. I had no idea it was possible to love someone—something as much as I love you. I want the best for you. I want you to be happy. I have had a happy life but I want you to be even happier. You fit neatly in my two hands. My heart fits perfectly around your little finger – small as it was though It is a long time ago I remembered every moment I held you . “You will always be this child here in my hands. I will never leave you nor forsake you. I love you.”
As Mary Angelo said here have been people in my life who meant me well, taught me valuable lessons, and others who have meant me ill and, have given me ample notification that my world is not meant to be all peaches and cream. I have made many mistakes and no doubt will make more before I die. When I have seen pain, when I have found that my ineptness has caused displeasure, I have learned to accept my responsibility and to forgive myself first, then to apologize to anyone injured by my mis-reckoning. Since I cannot un-live history, and repentance is all I can offer God, I have hopes that my sincere apologies were accepted. You may not control all the events that happen to you, but you can decide not to be reduced by them. Try to be a rainbow in someone’s cloud. Do not complain. Make every effort to change things you do not like. If you cannot make a change, change the way you have been thinking. You might find a new solution. Take one-step at a time. There is no hurry.
One day, if God wills, you will know how deeply a parent loves a child. It is the bottomless vein in a parent’s heart. Nevertheless, you will never know how intensely a mother loves her daughter. It is hard to put into words. It is a mixture of strength and softness unique to this bond. A mother’s love hovers like a citadel over the untouched treasure of her daughter’s life. (This is why your mum acts like a suspicious sniper around you.) A daughter thrives within its safe barrier. A mother’s love for his daughter is a preservative against a thousand ills seeking to infect the innocence of her life. I love you.
Go for your dreams. Really, dream as big as you can and go for it. You can do anything; but while you are dreaming big, also be sure to live in the here and now. Enjoy the present because before you know it, it will be the past. The worst feeling is wishing you had done something you did not do. Know that goals can change, and that is okay. You are not a failure for changing your mind. You are brave for going for something new. Do not keep wishing for what others have. You will never have enough if you keep comparing yourself to others. Learn to be happy with what you have, and remember life is a journey, not a competition. Do not waste the journey trying to outdo others.
Do not waste time trying to please everyone. You cannot. Some people just will not come around. Some people will not like you just because of the way you look. It is not right, but knows that you are better than that. Try to see the good in them still. If there is one word you should live by, let it be “love”. Love those who hate you, and those who love you back. Your compassion will shine through, and help others who need that light of positivity.
I just want you to know that I would never do anything intentionally to hurt you.
When you are much older and fall in love, know that I do not care what your husband looks like. I care about how he treats you. In addition, the person who earns your heart should love you for your beauty inside. Someday, when you have children of your own, you will know how much I love you.
Last but not least , your friend will never allow himself or herself to see your tears, even though you pretend you are okay he/she knows that you are not. like your father , there is no man I love than I love him and I know he will cross the ocean for you someday. Be strong in this world and remember Mama adores you. Forever and always by the way, I will never forget changing your dippers. I love you Kizzy Junior
Love mama

*ideas  were  stolen  from  Google * :)

2012 and I


Someone asked me why I never follow my advice………………… that is when thoughts ambushed me. I have never thought of that question but, deep down in my heart I knew that I would neither follow my advice. I am good at listening to other people but am afraid no one is there for me.
2012 is here with us. Days have gone, and without realising we have already clocked ¼ of the year. I still ask myself what have I accomplished so far? Are my expectations being met or am I still floating on my fantasies?
When I look at 2012 the only thing I see and  think  about  is the number 12. It was a very significant number especially in the bible.

Let me brief you about the ¼ of the year I have lived.
We all know and are aware of Joseph he had 12 brothers . though they were relatives they threw him into a pit and later he was sold indirectly to the Egyptians. In life we have to find and know the people we stay with, some of your friends are going to throw you into a pit and leave you with no help but above all we just have to humble ourselves for God tells us when we humble ourselves blessings and favour shall befall us. Joseph was later made Governor of Egypt and he later treated his family like he did not have any grudge with them. Lesson learnt : love every one , though they will not love you back @ the end of the day you have done your best.
Also we cannot forget the little boy who gave out his lunch to feed the crowd. You might think that you have nothing left but DO YOU KNOW WHAT GOD HAS IN STORE FOR YOU. God knows the quantity of task you have, however small it is give thanks you may never know how much it will bless you.
Last but not least Jesus had 12 disciples before they increased. Out of those 12 disciples 2 denied and betrayed him. this year many are going to betray you , some are going to sell you off while some will deny you. Its life and we are all humans. The only thing we can do is to pray that God will change the hearts of men. People are going to forget what you have done for them. Remember when Jesus rose from the dead, no one recognised him till he did something for them. There are people in this world who are going to forget you and only remember you when they want something from you.
Everything happens for a purpose. Take heart and remember that God is watching you. All you have to ask your self is “where is your heart?” is your heart out to God or is your heart out to the world.
Every day you live in the lord , you end up been better than you were yesterday. God created you with a purpose , all you have to do is to humble yourself before the lord. There will be mountains in your life but, God reminds us that he is going to level them for us. God never tempts he only tests us. Take a look at a potter when he makes his pots. Whenever one pot spoils, he has to start once again. God is the moulder of your life, he has to remould you every now. When you feel like the world is turning and the worries of the world are on your shoulder whisper a prayer to God and tell him that you know the plans for my life. With time you will be much better than you were today
Life is beautiful take heart, do what makes you happy and remember I care for you. 

GOD WOULD YOU RE-VIST MY LIFE SOON?


i  have  no  idea  of  what  to  do  or  to  say.  sometimes  or  let  me say  most  of  the time  i  sit  on  my  bed  and  i try  to  reflect  on  my  life  but  ,  today   all  i  could  was  cry  my  tears  out.

(yeah  yeah  yeah   “whining  is  for  babies ‘”  go  hunt  for a  lion   if  you  think  like  that.  if    those  tears  are  not  yours  go  fish a  barracuda) 

 

1/03/2012

I  do  not  know  even  where  to  begin   or  let  me  first  get  my  self  together

do  re  visit  my  life  as  soon  as possible

God I know you might have been fed up of my letters. Please do trust in me and help me like you always do. God I don’t want to be with this damn thing again. I want to change I want to lift my head before others.  When  i  have  no  idea of  what  is  happening  in  my life  ,  i  go  on  my  knees  and  beg  for your  mercy.  i  k now that  i  have  never  been  perfect or  close  to  been  perfect but  i  pray  that  you  will  break  me  into  pieces.  i  need  to  be  broken  into  pieces  that  you  can  work  with.  am  tired  of  living  a  life  full of  lies,  a  life  that  even  i  get  shocked .  i  know  it  sounds  absurd but  that’s  the real  do.  i  believe  you  know  me  better  than  i  know  myself  so  RE-VISIT   MY  LIFE  AND  WORK  ON  IT .

This  is  not  the  life  i  am  intending  to  live  ,  i  want  to  be  close  to  you. close  to  have  a  conversation  with  you,  close  to  feel  your  touch  and  your  presence .  i  need  you  in  my  life.  do  not  leave  me .  let  me  know  that   when  my  world  is  shaking    heaven  stands and  when my  heart  breaks ,  i  would  never  leave  your  hand.

Why is suffering permitted you ask? Would we enjoy the sun without night, the moon without clouds, the warmth without cold? The sweet taste of love, without the pain of loss?”

let  me  know  that  dating  you  (God)  is  better  option   for  me.  i  need  you  in  my life  not  only  today  but  always.

life in numbers by Number 8


i  you  happen  to  know NUMBER 8  you would  appreciate  his  talent.  he  aint  doing  this  for  you  but  to  God  himself.  i  celebrate  you  today  cheers  for  one  of  his  works,

Life can be as complex as mathematics

Find yourself gettin caught up in a matrix

My life was divided into a multiple of priorities

Problem is most of them were rooted in carnalities

Feeling entrapped in Closed Brackets Of Division

By a Multiple of Additional Subtractions

To my chances of attaining my predestined degree of freedom

That would enable my spiritual dentals to grow to wisdom

I wasn’t living my life the best way I could live it

T’waz coming to a dead end just like a limit

This very nature was simply a product

of me bein a mere mortal created from raw dust

All that sin was killin me just like poisson

My boyz on the other hand helpin me differentiate

Right from wrong tellin me “love the friends u hate,

Integrate ur lifestyle with God’s truth

So wen u fall, you know He’ll be waitin with arms open wider than obtuse”

But first I had to eliminate some errors in reasoning

Reason being

I thought I just needed to get through school & get me a cute shortie

But truth is this was just an acute shortage

of what I really needed

Coz what I really needed

Was to let myself decrease

And simultaneously let Jesus increase

Coz through this one choice I’m destined for heaven

3 nails + 1cross made me 4given

The blood that He shed washed me whiter than detergent

And the love He shared struck me right like a tangent

At the cross He takes my sins forgives &then forgets

Raises me to higher power than exponents

My testimony’s all about the son that God sent

Christ over Dann…now that’s my quotient

The cosine…

More like the sine that cos’d

My life to cross

The line that was

Holding my life from God:

Christ on the Cross!!

Where He became my boss

He saved my boyz

I raise my voice

And praise my source

Of eternal cause….

To this day, God still moulds me to being on point like a decimal

So I share my story through a poem so intellectual…

EIGHT…2007

http://dannnumber8.wordpress.com/

 

and God said no !!!!!!


Thursday  set  in   quiet  interesting.  in  a fishy  way  in fact,  BUT   before  i  continue  ,  i would like to suggest you click on the button to the right of this post that says ‘FOLLOW BY EMAIL’ its  kind  of  an   important button. You don’t need to know what it does. Just know its important.{the  hungry  traveler}

so  i  was  saying  today   i   have  not  complain ,  i  decided  to  sit  back  and  relax but  wait  i  have  to bitch  a little  a  little   just  a little

i asked God to take away my pride. And God said “No”.
He said it was not for Him to take away, but for me to give up.2 Chronicles 32:26 Matthew 18:4

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole. And God said “No”.
He said her spirit was whole, her body was only temporary. 2 Corinthians 4:16
2 Corinthians 5.1

I asked God to grant me patience. And God said “No”.
He said patience is a by-product of tribulations. It isn’t granted, it is earned. Romans 5:3-4 James 1:2:4

I asked God to give me happiness. And God said “No”.
He said He gives me blessings, happiness is up to me. Matthew 6:21 & 30-34 Matthew 19:22

I asked God to spare me pain. And God said “No”.
He said suffering draws me apart from worldly cares and brings me closer to Him.2 Corinthians 1:1-7

I asked God to make my spirit grow. And God said “No”.
He said I must grow on my own. But He will prune me to make me fruitful. Romans 12:2

I asked for all things that I might enjoy life. And God said “No”.
He said He will give me life, that I may enjoy all things. 1 Kings 3:14
Revelation 2:7

i ask God to help me love others, as much as he loves me.
And God said “Ah, finally you have the idea!! Mark 12:29-31

                                                                                                                 by Claudia Minden Weisz

i wonder what God thinks of me!!!!


Do you think, God stays up in heaven cause his afraid of what his created here n earth? us?

Thursday  night  was  full  of my  thoughts.  I  was  walking  home  from   a  youth  ministry  and   I  thought   what  does  God  think  of  me.

sometimes  or  let  me  say most  of  the  time  i  have  lived    double  lives.   for  example  for  five  days  am  just  like  any  other  human  being ,  but  when   Sunday  comes  i  am  all  a saint.  i  bet  ,most  people  would  say    damn  she  is  more  spiritual.

i  always  carry  my  bible   but   how many  times  do  I  read  it  to  understand  what  God’s  has   planned  for me?  i  then  realized  that  I  have  been living  life  according  to  my  plan. :(   this  are  the  times  that  you  go  to  the  LORD   for  help   then  you  realize  that  He  does not  work   on  your  time  frame,  he  might  take  centuries  but  his  time  is  always  the  best .  you  have  to  remember  that  to  God  1000 years  to  him  is  just  like  one  day.  so  how  many  time  have  you   been  mad  at  God?

right  now  i sit  back  and  think.  he can  take  your  life  any  minute  from  now,  but  because  of  his  patience  and persistence  he  has  given  you another  chance  to  see  this  day.   how  many  times  do  you pray  in  a  day? did  you  tell  God  good  morning  and  thank  you  for   giving  you  the  energy  to  open  your  house.

a habit  takes  3  weeks.   change  your  ways  and  see  God’s  faithfulness  in  your  life.   i  am  not  innocent  in  this  story ,  the  first  thing  i  always  do  when  i  wake  up  is  pick  my  phone ,  and  log  in  to  Facebook ,   if  only  i  wake  up  pick  my  bible  instead  of  my  phone  and   tell  God  whats  in  my  mind.  he  only  wants  5  minutes  of  your  time.  can  you sacrifice   those  few  minutes   for  Him.

thoughts  about  God  came  running  into  my  mind  and  i  just  realized  we  are  not fair  to  him.  every  morning  he  comes  and  knocks  on  your  door  but  what  you  always  do  is  to  brush  him  off.  every  night  he  shines his  light  through  the moon  but  you fail  to  recognize  him.

he  has  given  you all what  you wanted,  can  you get  back  to  him  and   say  thank you ?

when  i  got  home  i  went  to  my  silent  room  and

i  told  God  to  speak  to  me, 

a mead work  sang  but  i  did not  hear  it

thunder  rolled i  looked  up  to  the  sky  and   i  told  God  let  me  see  you,

the  moon  and  the  star  shinned  brightly  but  i  failed  to  see  it .

God  show  me  a miracle ,

my  nephew was  born  but  i  brushed  him  off

touch  me  lord, 

that  moment   a bee  came  over  but  i  was scared  it might  sting  me

God  is  always  a  step  away  but  as  human  beings  have  brushed  him  away,  we  have  ignored  him  completely  and  we only  attended  to  him  when  we  feel 

as i  pen  off  i  would  want  you  to  think  about  this  questions

do  you think  you are  fair  to  God?

are  you happy  when  your  friends  neglect,  ignore  and  brush  you  away   only  to  return  when  they  want  something  from  you?


i  wonder  what  God  thinks of  me !!!!!!!

the devils letter


dear  human  being,

good morning  dear  one,  i  am  so  glad  that  God  gave  you another  chance  to  see  today,  but  that’s  not  my  happiness. my  own  concern is  that  you still  alive  and kicking  .  glad  that  you will  do  what  i  tell  you to  do. i  have a  lot in-store  for  you and  i  know  you  gonna  love  everything  that  i  tell  you  and  what  you see.  so  i  realized  that  you  got  off  your  bed  in  a hurry  without  even  telling  your  own  father  thank you  for  his  mercies to  wake  you up. “  and they  tell  me  that  am  evil,  i  bet  you  are more  evil  than  me”   any  way  you have no  protection  so  i  can  come  into  you  at  any  angle  (my  joy) you  know  prayers  make  it  difficult  for me  to  use  you  but  ,  hey  don’t  feel  bad  that  you did not  pray.  as i  have  told  you i  have  got  a lot  for  you,  you  will  be  happy   with  the  results of  your  labor. such  a fool

before  we start  our   duties  today   you  need to  know  am  not  holding  you,  whatever  you  do  ,  kindly  do  not  pull  me  when  you get  caught  cause  if  you  do,

neither  do  i

its  up  to  your  conscious  to  tell  you  what  to  do .  if  you get  attracted  to  me  the  better  but  remember  it’s not  of  mutual  interest.  you  can  be  as  beautiful  as the  sun  or  as  handsome  as   Micheal  Scofield  but  that’s  not  my  what  i  want  from  you.    its  business here  .  

here  is  a list  of things  i  want  you to  do  for  me  ,

  • drugs-  i  know  you  gonna  love  the  feeling  when  you take  them.  sometimes  life  can  be  a bitch , but why  do  you  let  yourself  suffer  when  you  can  make  yourself  feel  good.  in  the  beginning  it will  be  hard but  i  will  help  you  deal  with  it .  its  is  also  an  easy  way  of   getting  money  ,  indulge  your  friends  and  your  world  will  be   prosperous .
  • theftthere  is  no  need of  you working  hard  yet  you  are  paid  very  little ,  why  don’t you   steal  from other  people,  you will  be  more  richer  than  you  expected.  something  always  comes  along  you will  be  feared  in  the  society,  you will  be  the  king  in  your  society.  i  know  you would  want  that .
  • taking  advantage  of  people -  you  aint  a  saint  saints  are  in  heaven  where  your  God  cashed  me .  i  did not  deserve  to  be  thrown  to  the  abyss   but  hey it  was done  ,  we can not  go  back  in  time .  as a matter  of  fact  am taking  advantage  of  you right  now.  if  someone  does  you wrong,  kill  ,  abuse  or  do  something  to  him  that  he /she  will  never  forget .  believe  you me  you  will  fell  much  better  when  all  is  done .   you need  to  survive  in  this  world ,  if  God  says he  loves  you like  he  says  he  will  give  you  every thing  you want  without  even  working  for  it .  ” am  just  talking  sense “   go  out  there  get  a girl  pregnant  and  walk  away  from  her,  go  steal  all  the money  from  that  man  and  walk  as  if  nothing  happened.  i  know  you would  love  it.  WHAT  ARE  YOU WAITING  FOR!!!
  • ditch  the  bible -   the  bible  won’t  help  you in  any  way .  its  just  stories and stories  and stories .  you  can  be  like  Adam   he  was  a big  headed  ,  he  ditched  God and  ate  that  fruit.   but  he  still  survived,  you  too  can  survive,  have  you ever  had someone died  cause  of  not  reading  the  bible  .  dude  grow  up   and  follow me   am  just  what  you  want .  you  will  be  happy   stress free  and  easy  life . 
  • worship  me -   bow  down  to  me,  forget  God,  worship  money  worship  the  women  then  take  advantage  of  them.  worship  the  world and  all  its  desires .  you will  be  blessed  under  my  name. i  can  do  for  you  much  than  what  you can  imagine

GOD LOVES YOU and HE has great plans in store for you. But you have yielded your life to me, and I’m going to make your life a living hell.-  not  really  hell  but  a place  where  you can not  do  without  me. That way, we’ll be together twice. This will really hurt God. but  who  cares 

you need  to  watch  all  those  dirty  movies  ,  worship  idols  and  hate  is  my  strongest  point  and  believe  you me  you  will  not  be  disappointed.

When you are tempted to sin,  you give in….. HA HA HA,
you make me sick. Sin is beginning to take its toll on your life. You look 20 years older, and now, I need new blood.
So go ahead and teach some children how to sin.  All you have to do is smoke, get drunk  or drink while under-aged, cheat,
gamble, gossip, fornicate,  and live being as selfish as possible.
Do all of this in the presence of children  and they will do it too.  Kids are like that.

 

i  have spent so  much  time  with  you,  you are  my  only  client  if  you get  this  letter,  you can  choose to  report  for  duty  or   go  in  the  Lords way.  as  i  said  you are  not  bound  to  me,  make  the  right scion  cause i  have  other  things  in  my  list. this is just  level  one,  if  you  do good  work i  will show you  my  level  2

for  now  schuss talk  laters 

                                                     devil 


how low can you get for God


i  believe that within each of us, lies an ability to compromise any situation that life throws at us. We are faced with decisions each and every day. We have to face others, and to learn when to get involved.

dear  God,

sorry  to  disturb

i  know  how  busy  you are

but  i feel  i should  be heard

it  will  not  take  30 min ,

i  will  try  my  best  to  be  as brief

as possible

every  day  the world  seems

difficult,  with  nowhere to  go,

i  am  not asking  to  make life  easier,

every  moment  lived on  earth  is  a lesson

the world is our teacher,

we are the students but we always  have those

who  derail  us  from  learning  the good side of

the world.

reduce the amount of tears from  my  eyes

for i  cannot  take it any more

look at  our  country

and have mercy  on  your people

look  at  him  please  God  just  look  at  him

restore his  health  ,  don’t  let  him  die.

i  know that  we have done  wrong  ,  things  that

anger  you but  God  please  listen  to  me

sometimes life seems like  a criminal

i know you are the answer  but

i  forget  what  the  question  is

i  have  gone  down  on  my  knees

but  i  think  that i  have not  emphasis

what  really  i  want

so  i  am  writing  you this  letter

hoping  that  i  might  get  a reply  soon

i  am  at  my lowest  point   hear me

now, open  the flood gates  of  heaven and let  you  will  be done ‘

in  our lives

I  know  am  not  the  best

of your creation but  listen

this  is not

the  girl /boy  you  created

but  I  hope  you will  listen  my  plea

tonight.

sometimes I  look  at  my  self  and  I  wonder

is  this  the  way you want me to  live

I  should  have been  better but  sometimes

the world  makes me   do  what  i don’t  want  to  do

many  people  stumble  on  me and words  just

rush  out..  therefore i  pray  for self-control

that  whatever i  shall  speak  it  shall  be a blessing

i  know  that  today  will be my  turning  point

therefore  i  put my  trust  in  you that

you my  direct  my  footsteps

for i  know  where

sadness joy  comes in  the morning

i  don’t have to  worry

love  me

dear high most


sometimes i feel sad , i lack the words but please urge me.. i am dying slowly.

this is how this letter will be, i will try not pass my sentiments and i will be strong as possible. how i feel now is different , it’s just the fact that i feel like you are neglecting me, . if i cry , it will not help me @ all. therefore i will pretend that nothing has happened or is happening. i know it aint good to complain but the far this has reached i can’t take it any more. where are you God? where are you?

yes i believe i am no saint.. but i know i am no atheist. what God , have i not done for you? how have i wronged you?? just tell me TELL ME WHERE I HAVE GONE WRONG

God am only 17 years why do i have to suffer like this.. when i was 14 years i was diagnosed with arthritis , it prevented me to do what i was meant to do when i was that age, i have kept the fight and i as time went i trusted you. right now i got another chronic disease. do i really have to go all through this, i know you got big plans for me, but :(

please God revisit my life soon…

“A high heart ought to bear calamities and not flee them, since in bearing them appears the grandeur of the mind and in fleeing them the cowardice of the heart”. ~Pietro Aretino..” Why is suffering permitted you ask? Would we enjoy the sun without night, the moon without clouds, the warmth without cold? The sweet taste of love, without the pain of loss?”

|Rocky Norris